All these triumphant words
Nothing
A metaphorical straw
Nothing
There’s something left
Nothing
A husk.
Where is your power
Nonexistent
And it makes you feel
Nonexistent
You can’t fix what is slapped as your fault
Nonexistent
You should be ashamed.
And look at you,
Null
why do you think you deserve things?
Null
You’re not a human,
Null
You’re supposed to be dead.
Hey, y’all. I finished my art homework for the next part of the semester but overall, I just wonder what I’m going to do with this blog. I can’t keep taking breaks. I don’t think that’s right, but I’m exhausted with everything. I literally wake up and don’t feel like offering anything to the table and my characters are great but I just don’t feel like sharing them anymore. I’ve lost a lot of passion and drive. It’s like…what’s the point. It’s not even like it’s a story.
It’s just that it’s hard to make something. It’s not like this story is really that complex than any movie you’d see or book, yet, it’s just…exhausting to share to people. I hate to say some people don’t care, but I could just post my art on here with no captions or a long explanation and that’d matter more then if I littered my post with captions and effort.
It’s like how my professor ask why I did something and expect a small one word explanation or an artisty term and go on but when I give a story and my references, they zone out. It’s just…what’s the point?
If my intent is meaningless and everyone else’s are important, why do I need intent or write a long caption? What’s the point? What’s the point of just not doing painting of absolutely nothing or just a women looking at y’all, the viewers? Give your own intent.
What is my purpose of making a blog or existing? What’s the point?
What did you bring to the potluck? 
20 replies on “The case of the [blank]”
Love the drawing. I think that it would look great in colour.
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Thank you so much! I get so psyched out coloring (because I think I suck) that I forget to color some pictures, but I am slowly conquering the fear and trying to color and work on color but it’s sooo hard.
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I have the opposite problem. I can’t sketch.
I hope you feel better. Take care
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Heavy disagree. I think you can sketch. You probably just have a different thought of how your art should look in your head. I like how your art looks and how you have backgrounds.
Take care as well.☺️
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I’m sorry you’re going through this Feets. I think it’s good to take breaks, and branch out when it comes to blogging. If drawing things on a blog isn’t giving you purpose, take a break and do something else with it. The idea of blogging is to have fun. Rant, write poetry, post your favourite music, and yes draw (you’re good at it) when you feel like it. I often wonder why I’m here too. So I get this post.
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I like drawing and posting it. It just feels like that’s kinda what people are looking at only sometimes instead of reacting to the story or reading character profiles. Fortunately I have my lucky few, like you, who engage on my blog.
Blogging is fun and I forget I can do other things and people aren’t just here for my art but also me.😵💫 It can get stressful at times.
I’m definitely considering branching off and just branching out.
Unlike some people, I cannot draw every single day.😂
And that’s funny you feel that way when you have quite interesting and exciting literature on your account. You should be posting here.👌
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Yeah, when one feels that one is not being understood, sometimes not even being understood by people one respects, loves, and gets along. I have often thought about the same issue. Is there something for me? Is there a path forward?
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It’s nice that you understand how I feel. I feel so lost a lot. I love the community here, but my life clashes and it affects everything from my art to my ability to do things.
I hope it goes well with you.
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Yes, I would say it is a struggle, sometimes more struggling than other times. LOL. Growing up struggling has helped me manage my struggle. I would say it is manageable…
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I hope you are able to get past this. You are so talented! I will miss seeing your art if you take a break but please do what you need to take care of yourself. You sound like your spirit is exhausted and you need to feel less pressure. If blogging is adding to your stress, shut it down for a while.
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I don’t think it’s blogging that’s causing me stress, I think it’s my outside life intruding in my little space that affects my blogging. I don’t think I’ll take that long of a break blogging (probably a week) I’m just trying to fix a problem that I have and will get it together. Mostly I need to do more art. 😂 These classes are so intense!
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As the other two commenters said, you have to discover your why. Maybe take a break and really think about why you started the blog and what you want to achieve. Is it to chronicle your art journey? To share your art? To journal? Maybe your original intent doesn’t work for you anymore.
As a side note, I really love your woman’s body image. She looks fierce and in control.
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Thank you!
I felt like it was good advice from all of y’all. I appreciate the community I have here. It’s just really hard to know what to do. Y’all are right…I don’t want to take a big break, but I think it would be the best.😌
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If you don’t feel like blogging… don’t. Could it be that you need a long break, just to refresh and reorient yourself?
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Maybe? I think I might just have to try something new.
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If you’re going to do something do it for yourself because you want to. Not because of how others will react to it. At least that’s how I think.
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It’s hard not to. I feel like everything I do makes me feel held at gun point. It just feels worthless to do anything anymore. I don’t like feeling lonely or like I’m talking to myself.
It’s not even the people here on WordPress, it’s just reality and in person, nobody cares what I have to say. It’s easier to have a platform online, but in person, I could just die and maybe someone could care.
I’ve been sleeping all day and nothing’s improved. I just want it to.🥴
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I’m so sorry you feel that way but I’m sure more people care about you than you think.
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Thank you.💕 That makes me feel better. Genuinely.
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I’m glad to hear that. 💕
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