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I’m absolutely exhausted

Sorry that a lot of my posts are rants, but I’m just not feeling life right now and I’m pissed and depressed. Have some patience with me. Being an artist with issues can be like that and I rather post and be honest and stay motivated to post, instead of suppressing it and potentially never posting again.

Other than nature coming after my body, being online gives me so much exhaustion and really makes me genuinely hate people or being online. The irritating thing about life is that it’s great to exist but other people are absolutely terrible.

Why do people like bringing more people here? Why?

Anyway, I’m tired of people saying there’s no jobs or AI is taking over. It’s exhausting. I hate being critically online but I feel I have nothing else. I’m tired of exhausting people and feeling bad about it later. I’m constantly told that I need particular things and need to do particular things for my life to have meaning and I can tell you, 100% that I feel like garbage. It’s probably just my sour personality. I’m the problem.

Personally I don’t care about showing my fails to people. This one was a straight fail with a good learning lesson. Laugh with me and not at me. It’s janky, y’all.
I drew this one late at night (an hour or so after the one on the sheet. Holding coloring pencils funnily are terrible for my hands.
I drew this in the morning. She could be ugly to people but in my opinion, her expression and look looks a bit stale (not her face)

I want to draw and color but it doesn’t bring joy and kind of makes me sad. It’s temporary, but it’s dragging my mood down.

How do you live in such a world
and don’t understand a soul?
Walking around aliens,
Yet that’s who you are.

You isolate yourself,
and choose not to understand people,
as if you’re entitled to their opinion.
You have no authority.

Stay in your place.

I drew this a while back, but I feel like this right now.

😒

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51 replies on “I’m absolutely exhausted”

People as a whole are disappointing, but individual people can be amazing. Tighten your circle for a bit and recharge. You don’t owe anyone your time or energy. It took me until I was 40 to start saying no and stop feeling guilty about it.

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Sorry if that was confusing (words are so imperfect sometimes). I meant, tighten your circle of friends and family (those you keep close). Don’t worry about pleasing those outside your circle because they don’t ultimately matter.

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Ahhh. Good point! Thank you for explaining.

Words are words. They only mean something in the context that they’re in. When you explained it, I felt so stupid because that made so much sense.😂

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I feel your exhaustion. I think it comes from the amount of stupidity you see online and trying even if only in your head to point out why it’s stupid. There’s no point. Everyone thinks their opinion it the only one. Disagree and you’re a fascist. You can’t argue with people who think like that, any more than you can argue with believers of any cult. They’re right, you’re a fascist bigot scumbag on the wrong side of history. I’ve stopped even reading the crap. It’s utterly pointless. Do your thing here on this blog and forget the rest. I like your drawings. They’re expressive.

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Nothing to me. But the online world seems to have gone overboard with bawling out anyone who dares to have an opinion. And everyone does. I keep out of the arguments that have no resolution. Banging heads against walls.

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You know, your opinion is your opinion and while it’s fine to agree with others and change it, sometimes it’s not required.

Plus, some people are loud, but if they’re on the internet coming after you, either they’re saying something mildly (very generous with this) factual or they’re just critically online and are guarding their emotions in their echo chambers.

I’ve recently had to delete an app off my phone due to the sheer ignorance and lack of reading ability online.

It’s exhausting to know that people don’t listen, but you know, people do as people do. Please take care of yourself.

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The last time I flew of the handle on the internet it was at some man who laughed (posted a laughing emoji) after a comment I’d made in a post where people were talking about dairy products and why they didn’t like and weren’t going to use alternatives because milk tasted better. I pointed out that we only get milk because a cow has had her baby taken away from her, and it would be kinder to leave the milk in the cow and eat vegetal spread. He laughed at a cow having her baby stolen. Said he was tired of hearing how cruel it was and he just didn’t give a shit. So I got angry. It’s not worth it. People like that don’t have hearts to change.

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That’s ridiculous. I agree more with you. I don’t use dairy products anymore because my body rejects them and even before that, I just don’t think it’s right. I think the over processing of animals, just to have their food wasted by people who own businesses/retails is just sad.

I get annoyed when people don’t have compassion. It’s ridiculous. Compassion for others helps with self compassion.

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I’m having an allergy induced migraine. It’s absolutely terrible and it’s been here for a couple of days and I’m in pain and don’t want to do anything.

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Do you have medication for it? Could be an aggravating factor for your weariness with everything. There’s nothing you can do with a migraine, like seasickness with a crashing headache.

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I do, I just forget to take it. It kinda works, but not really in a way I need. I also have dehydration from not drinking enough fluids.😭

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You are soooooo talented, and the way you’re able to express yourself is a superpower 💕 I really hope you feel better soon. Sending lots of love and light your way!! 💛💛💛🌼🌼🌼❤️❤️❤️

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I know I haven’t commented in a long long time, but all of your recent posts?? They’re actually so relatable. Also this: “The irritating thing about life is that it’s great to exist but other people are absolutely terrible.” someone finally GETS. IT. I’m so sorry the world has to be this way AND HERE’S A HUG AND SOME CHOCOLATES THAT I HOPE MAKE YOU FEEL A LITTLE BIT BETTER ATLEAST. Fingers crossed you have much better days soon ❤️❤️

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I am sooo sorry, I just saw this comment but thank you so much! 😂

I was in my feelings with this post but I’m so much better but I appreciate your virtual gifts, it means a lot!

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Even I feel exhausted being online. Your frustration could be easily felt by your words. I wish you feel better!!
I love Your sketches as you already know.
Loved the poem too, you’re pretty good at poetry💕

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I wish I could leave a positive or uplifting comment but I’ve been feeling like crap for the last two days. All I will say is that I understand how you feel much more than you can know. And being online can be extremely exhausting.

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Just being here and acknowledging someone’s pain instead of slapping positivity helps so much.

I wish I would’ve saw this comment earlier, but I appreciate it nonetheless.☺️

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“Stay in your place.” That right there speaks volumes. I feel your frustrations in your post and wish I could give you a hug. You’re very creative – keep drawing, writing poetry, and expressing yourself even when it feels hopeless sometimes.

P.S. I’m also getting annoyed by all of the shade that ppl online are throwing at ChatGTP and AI in general. AI is a great tool when used in the right ways.

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Thank you so much, I appreciate your compliment and your encouragement. It is very frustrating out here.

I can see how you feel about it. I’m neutral about it when it comes to people claiming it’s theirs, but less that it’s bad. It’s a reference tool just like anyone else’s art. Literally got some of my references from other people’s art and one of the pictures on this blog makes me uncomfortable because one of them posturally and hairwise, looks toooo close to the reference and kinda looks bad but unless the artist can tell (and cares) and wants to fight me, then I’m okay.

I, like most people, don’t want anyone to lose their job or get laid off, but that’s a corporate greed and cheapness problem and not anyone’s or AI itself’s fault.🤷🏾

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I’m no artist with drawing and sketching🙃😋 therefore I respect those whose are🙏 I think your drawings are lovely and their expressions very detailed. You do you… It’s beautiful 👌

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Thank you so much! The internal side of me will struggle forever, but coping with it is tedious work.😣😮‍💨 I’m a mess.

And thank you so much! I appreciate your comment.☺️

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I’m a work in progress .. or a mess in progress of being tidied! Haha! I know things are really stupid and annoying sometimes, but you got this! Draw more grumpy faces – maybe it’ll help? 💚

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😂😂😂 I feel like the latter. Thank you for the motivation.

I love drawing irritated and grumpy faces. That’s my resting face. Very irritated and look like I would fight.😂 I’m a lot to handle, so it’s probably good that I look irritating and intimidating to people.

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Haha! Well, I don’t usually like people that much.. and folks always ask me “what’s wrong?” with my resting face 🤣🤣 I’m always thrown off by that.. I wonder what I do?

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😂 People just side eye me and walk away quickly or get nervous talking to me.

I think it’s hereditary because I ask my mom that everytime I see her. 😂😂

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